(via kaffeinkatmandu) Title by Charles Bradley
Currently dreaming of sailing away, moving to New York, a career within music supervision, writing or a creative field, ample leisure for literature and movies; wavering between choosing the path of conformity or venturing out into pursuing my non-medical school dreams; looking for internships abroad, a life, things that don’t concretely exist, a way to please everyone including myself. This is the result of a sudden change of plans. After my exams, I’ll be facing an entire year without a particular plan, allowing me to ponder on what to do with my life as I no longer know “what to do”… this is a huge turnaround for someone whose so-called pastime is planning, particularly the future.
I promise I will come back stronger after my final exams. 14th of June is the date! In the meantime, enjoy my favorite tunes of late and the sporadic, unpredictable posts – if there will be any at all.
The Isley Brothers – Go All The Way
Cocoon – American Boy
Ahhh… love the jams. Thank you for sharing. Good luck on your exam and IF you ever move to NY, get in touch. :) P.S. I finally started my own blog. Thanks for the inspiration. xoxoLuna.blogspot.com
The plan to not to plan. I somehow can't believe a control freak (a highly organised person in other words) can switch to pondering just like that :-) Good luck on your exams!
Switch "New York" with another city, and I would feel as though I were reading my own words…It sounds like you have the freedom right now.So if I can say a single word to you: Venture!!!
There should always be enough time to dream! But I so agree with your musings…except for the New York part heh. Great picks of songs. Are you in uni or not?
Do it. Venture out! Be free as a bird, and don't, don't, don't let anyone take it away from you!
Good luck for your exams! I took the practical way out, and don't particularly regret it even if there were moments where I didn't like it – any decision made out of free will is a gift. In any case, you can change your mind and switch to a different school, and you're definitely young enough and have plenty of time :) So it's not the be all and end all.
i echo lin's words – enjoy your year of exploration, and relish the open-endendness! and you can always change course. i'm in the midst of something very similar myself this summer…and there's a whole mix of emotions for what choices to make, but that's what being young is all about.
I also read The Stranger 2 weeks ago, in one sitting. It's wonderful!
Good luck!
Is it venturing out season? All your thoughts, I feel the same way fleurette! It'd be a great experience to step outside borders and find what else is there for you! I also want to do the same, but I still have plans… Perhaps I should start semi-planning and let things spin by themselves… Good luck on your exams and your dreaming! :)
I'm interested to see what you do = ) I will be free from university in one year from now and I'm not sure what to do once I'm done either. Even though I took the practical way out by going to university, being in the liberal arts field doesn't make anything very certain in terms of job prospects so its actually pretty impractical, but at least its interesting. Anyway, I'm happy that by 21 I will have study behind me for the time being. I think a year out is a really good idea, to get some perspective and just live outside an institutional setting
As a fellow control-freak/hyper-organizer who is beginning to stray off her own path, I absolutely encourage you to explore. It's tough in the beginning but if you can afford to give yourself the gift of some pressure-free time your soul will thank you for it. And you never know where it might lead! It might even lead you back to your original plan, but you will rest easier knowing it's the right thing for you.http://nomadic-d.blogspot.com/
Jeg synes det høres spennende ut, så utnytt det og ikke la sjansen gå fra deg! Lykke til med eksamen!
Good luck with your exams, and your plans for the future. I am right there where you are, but I haven´t started on any studies yet. I have dreams, and things I would love to do, take an intern here and there, and try out everything there is to try out in the fashion industry, for instance, but I also have to think a little realistic, because that is how I am. Now I am going to Italy for two weeks – klarer ikke vente! :D
This is a brave decision! I wish I could just a year take a break from my life, but I'm afraid, stuck in relationships that I don't want to leave, my boyfriend, my family, my university, my job.I wish you every success in your plans, and of course your exams!
I find this kind of topics so interesting, I'd love to know more about what you do and what careers are you interested in.I don't think I could take a year off. I always make the best decision that I can, and then move forward no matter how unsure I am of that decision. Mostly because I think life is always going to be full of uncertainties, and also because I believe I can make the best of whatever the path I follow. In any case, the best thing about being at a crossroads is that interesting things are sure to come. These are the moments you learn the most!
I'm in med school too now and sometimes I wish I wonder if I made the right choice or am I doing it to be my parent's dream daughter…I was really into finance and investment banking but my parents said medicine is a 'safer' career. I do enjoy being a student at a hospital but I don't seem to have that passion I used to have when I first.Good luck with your exams :) btw what year of med school are you in?
Est-ce qu'il serait possible d'avoir une version française de ton site ? Mon anglais est très bancal…Merci !
Follow your heart. You do best in what you love. Worked for me. :)Fashion-wise, it'll be like Carrie Bradshaw in reverse! Can't wait to read your blogs from the Big Apple!
First of all Good Luck for your exams! About planning life and future and dreams… well, lets say I had a few, and then life happened with all it's unpredictabilities and I don't know where they went… I feel half of my life, has been about overcoming the storms, waiting for the sunshine, with brief moments of pure excitement and joy. I have ventured and failed, and ventured and gained, so, all I can say is do what your heart tells you to, and if it doesn't work, it doesn't work, but at least you won't spend the rest of your life thinking about how it would have been "if"…At your age, it's the time to experience and try things and risk a bit.You know what they say "nothing ventured, nothing gained", just prepare yourself for the losses…
Good luck with exams. And about the bigger question at hand . . . I find that the heart always knows what it wants, it's just a matter of being brave enough to see it.
I'm drifting for a year as well—maybe even longer. I changed my mind 3 or 4 times in uni, but each of those minor meltdowns brought me closer to finding what I love. The hardest part is finding a place for yourself in a creative industry when you have so many interests. Don't even ask me what job-hunting with a liberal arts degree is like.But you can plan and dream at the same time!
I'm currently pondering, planning but mostly dreaming. I had worked towards becoming an illustrator for 3 years, when I got to university to study illustration found it wasn't for me, dropped out and have been pondering for a few months now. I've learnt more about my self the past few months than I had my entire time in education. Good luck with your exams and it's good to know I'm not the only one currently feeling this way!
Good luck!And that Cocoon cover is so perfect!
What a lovely picture. I didn't know you were considering medical school! I've just finished my finals – 14th June is also my big date (I find out whether I'm Dr Alannarama or a resit student – eep!). All the best with your exams – you seem like a really conscientous hardworking person so I'm sure you'll do brilliantly. I took a year out after finishing school and it was one of the best decisions I ever made. I lived in Vienna for ten months as an au pair, I saw so much and developed into my own person in that time. You seem quite well-travelled already, but I would definitely recommend getting away from home and having some adventures of your own for a while, it's an amazing experience.
Just follow your heart and everything will be fine!
Just wanted to say that your blog is so wonderful and inspiring. I'll definitely be making frequent visits.
I too have a year away from study beginning very soon. It's scary but exciting, isn't it? I think we'll be fine. I'm concentrating on getting more experience in my field for now, but soon I'm moving in with my boyfriend and think I'll look to trade it in for an office job so that I can enjoy earning a bit of cash and not living like a student for the first time in years. Good luck in your exams!
I just stumbled across your journal last week and felt an immediate kinship with you. Your musical taste, your aesthetic, your mentions of therapy, your intelligence! Most blogs are pretty one-sided; even if you feel the author is intelligent or tasteful or "cool", they come across as self-indulgent in a way that doesn't acknowledge the fact that they are being self-indulgent. You recognize that in a graceful way. I wish you were my penpal. katie
I'm experiencing something kind of similar, a period of time when I don't know quite what I want to do next, but I am enjoying the process. The worry and anxiety and the promise and possibility of so much more, to lead a bigger life than I ever thought possible. Good luck with whatever it is you end up doing. And keep blogging while you're at it!
Just thought I'd let you know how much I'm still enjoying reading your blog – I've spent a lazy sunday re-reading my favourite posts. I find your playlists very interesting. Anyway, best of luck with your exams! x
I love reading your posts. I wish I could be a great writer/blogger like you! I think following your heart is the best advice- I didn't and now I'm unhappy, and stuck and completely uninspired.I don't want that to happen to anyone else! So find a way to follow your passion even if it can't be a full time thing right away.
nice music
there you go, fleurette- be bold! as "they" say, the world is your oyster. i believe strongly in pursuing one's passions, for life's too short to do otherwise. :) good luck with your exams!
Good luck with exams. There should always be time for dreaming. You have so many options and will do amazing things regardless of the path you decide on. Perhaps there is a way to combine both of your loves in some way. I just met a woman whose son is in med school, but is a classical musician. He is doing research on music’s ability to heal people who have suffered traumatic brain injuries and loves it. There really are limitless possibilities for your future.
You're all incredible! Thank you so much for the comments. I will reply to them as soon as my exams are over!
I just wanted to say how much I love all your latest posts (as always). I'm currently on the hunt for almost the same list of perfect summer items – the prescription wayfarers, sandals, black shorts, and straw sunhat, but won't settle until I find 'the one' (which usually means I go without). And good luck with your final exams!!Briony xx
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I'm also dreaming of a lot of the same things!:)xo
Thank-you for the comment on one of my posts. I was pleasantly surprised! :)
I study medicine. It's all the things they say it is. I did some different things before I started my medical degree – I lived in Paris and Rome, I did some literature studies at uni, I worked as a secretary and partied a lot. Now I am very happy I did all those things, because medicine (no matter what some professors will say) is always about meeting another person and communicating with him/her. I think it will make me a better clinician that I have had the chance to be friends with very different types of people and that I have seen many ways of "right". This being said, medicine is one of those studies that will take over your life. It's interesting and fun and scary and I learn a lot every day. Even so, when a musician friend of mine from Paris came to visit me when I finished my exams two weeks ago, I almost started to cry when I realized just how much of life and the world I miss out on with my 10 hours a day inside a hospital…
As Volpina said, you are going to miss out on a lot. I'm a med student as well, and for the first couple of years you can kiss spare time and non med school friends bye-bye. Well, maybe not entirely, but I can assure you that you will appreciate holidays more than ever, a rare occasion to catch up with your old friends ;)